Human Bondage
this is about someone I really and truly love, but i will not divulge there name or what they do. This is also about me, and im sure you can figure out which character i am, doesnt really matter though cause i n eeded to get this out some how:
Chapter 1:
This young mans name was Derick Chambers, he worked in a world that was filled with pain an anguish.. he has a secretary in the other room.
One that often wonders why hes shut up in the single office with desk and adjacent bathroom. the room is quiet, there is one picture on Derick's desk. Its of a young woman. the young woman is Silvia Shanahan. The secretary often wondered why he never meantioned the young woman on his desk and well, she never really asked. but the thing that was most interesting about this man is that he was so reserved and like a recluse after work.
He had friends and was fine around them. But when he got alone it was a different story. he would tear things up and talk to himself. he would talk to david, he would say david what should i do? how can i get this girl back, im so scared.. ive lost her. He being david and Derek replied "well you lost her, just forget about her." you have me to keep you company." he went online for a while and looked through his Aim buddy list. the girl was never online that he loved with all his heart. well, what he didnt know is she activated the invisible mode, so he couldnt see her.
She knew he was fighting demons and didnt know how to help him. She felt sorry for him. At 21 years old Sylvia found herself at a hurdle she couldnt beat. and that was someone that had a split personality.
She knew Derek for three years, and loved him dearly. what she didnt know, but recently found out is that he was being more than one person. she would get late night calls from restricted numbers with noone on the other end or so she thought. she found out it was this man, this guy, he wanted to hear her voice even though they fought two hours before that, and werent talking. He was a great guy, at first, a good heart and mind. one of the sweetest people you would want to meet. were his looks perfect? no they werent. but his heart was at the time.
He met Sylvia through a problem she had about a year ago. She had a horrendous accident with her car where the electrical system under the dash caught fire on her, '95 mustang cobra. he was there for her when noone else was. she couldnt pay the bill, and ya, this man was good and kind, he felt sorry for her and had connections to pay her bill off. She loved him for it , even though she thought something was fishy about the whole thing.
As she was sitting there at hom in her pajama's with a coke resting next to her on her coffee table she sat in the floor and looked on line at her buddy list. she saw he was still there so she signed on. or came out of her invisible mode. and this box from his name pops up. hey this is David, we got a problem.
Derek is drinking alot! he wont stop until he talks to you.. you need to drop what you are doing and calling him.
Sylvia said "but i have work I have to do for the hospital. can you all hang on until im done." Well what she did know was that she was talking to dereks other side. yes, it scared her, but she wanted to help this tortured soul find freedom from all the pain that it had endured.
She wanted to show this guy a normal relationship. but at the time she felt also like she was trapped. like there was no where for her to go but down because this guy was literally dragging her under the water with him.. under false hope and pretenses.
She thought back as she was responding to the instant message and said to herself, what did i get myself into? this guy is freakin crazy! she bit her lip then thought, if it were me, wouldnt i want someone to help me with this problem. She kept talking till her paper work was done..
even though it took longer because of this david that she barely knew. Finally, she asked where Derek was? he said well hes out drinking some spiced rum. you need to call him before he hurts himself.
Hesitating she picks up the phone, it rings a few times.. then.. Hello Sweetheart, says the voice on the other end that was Derek. Hello dear, she replied back. How are you feeling? Im ok says derek... dont drink anymore ok? i dont need you sick and talking outta your head like last time, sylvia said. Oh, well im not drinking. (says derek)
sylvia : well then why did david say you were drinking spiced rum and that i needed to call you?
Derek: Because it was the quickest way for me to talk to you, Baby.
Sylvia: You didnt have to lie to talk to me, Dear.
Derek: I was afraid you wouldnt speak with me.
Sylvia : Derek, you are a dork! how dumb are you?
Derek: Must be pretty dumb . but Angelica Bitched me out today because of you!
Sylvia: thats good because let me tell you why... you had no right to yell at me last night.
Derek: I love you and im sorry.
Sylvia sits on the floor and lets out a sigh. she thinks " Im fucking tired of this, all this guy does is bitch, and the split personality thing is hard. He talks to people that arent even in the room with him." how to help him * she thought* I know ill take him to couples therapy, maybe some of this will come out in it.
so she talked to him: I think we need couples therapy. I think it would be beneficial to having a better relationship. He freaks out, says " I dont think so, there is nothing wrong with us or this relationship" , *she puts up her away message * she sits there and takes another sigh, not knowing what to do accept call Angelica or Meghan. she pulls out her cell phone and makes a call to Meghan. no answer, she must be at work.
She calls Angelica. I dont know what to do (said sylvia) what do you mean (angelica.). well Derek is talking to himself, and I feel you need to know that I think he may have some problems that need counciling. I tried telling him we would go to couples therapy. but he refused. I wish that we could get him some help before its totally too late.
This is like the horror film the secret window. where he was Johnny depps character in the movie, he didnt even realize how much he talked with himself. Sylvia told Angelica all about it. Angelica says , well are you still going to talk to him? yes i will said sylvia.
Angelica sits in her chair for a moment and says, are you just going to forget about me and not talk to me anymore, you could hear the tears streaming down her cheeks and her voice cracking.. as she spoke.
No ill never leave you behind, your a dear, sweet friend and I love you. ill always talk to you , Angelica, even if it doesnt work out between me and Derek. you and I will always be friends. and ill try to remain dereks as well, cause i will always love him.
but I cannot be with him(marry him) for the simple fact hes taken this twist in his life. I think he had snapped when he was younger. I think it was his folks.. I think they ruined him for any other woman. well anyway, i just wanted to keep you abreast of whats going on with him. ill talk to you soon girlie, take care... sniffles* you too, Sylvia, I want you to call me again soon. ok i will. bye. * the phone disconnects, she turns it off*
she shuts down her computer.. then trapeses up the steps. and went to bed for the night. She thought about what he would be like normal. she thought what a great man he could have been. her heart sank to her stomach. when she realize she still loved him with all her heart.
An hour later she drifted off to sleep without a thought of what was going to happen the next day.
chapter two will come in a day or so.
Chapter 1:
This young mans name was Derick Chambers, he worked in a world that was filled with pain an anguish.. he has a secretary in the other room.
One that often wonders why hes shut up in the single office with desk and adjacent bathroom. the room is quiet, there is one picture on Derick's desk. Its of a young woman. the young woman is Silvia Shanahan. The secretary often wondered why he never meantioned the young woman on his desk and well, she never really asked. but the thing that was most interesting about this man is that he was so reserved and like a recluse after work.
He had friends and was fine around them. But when he got alone it was a different story. he would tear things up and talk to himself. he would talk to david, he would say david what should i do? how can i get this girl back, im so scared.. ive lost her. He being david and Derek replied "well you lost her, just forget about her." you have me to keep you company." he went online for a while and looked through his Aim buddy list. the girl was never online that he loved with all his heart. well, what he didnt know is she activated the invisible mode, so he couldnt see her.
She knew he was fighting demons and didnt know how to help him. She felt sorry for him. At 21 years old Sylvia found herself at a hurdle she couldnt beat. and that was someone that had a split personality.
She knew Derek for three years, and loved him dearly. what she didnt know, but recently found out is that he was being more than one person. she would get late night calls from restricted numbers with noone on the other end or so she thought. she found out it was this man, this guy, he wanted to hear her voice even though they fought two hours before that, and werent talking. He was a great guy, at first, a good heart and mind. one of the sweetest people you would want to meet. were his looks perfect? no they werent. but his heart was at the time.
He met Sylvia through a problem she had about a year ago. She had a horrendous accident with her car where the electrical system under the dash caught fire on her, '95 mustang cobra. he was there for her when noone else was. she couldnt pay the bill, and ya, this man was good and kind, he felt sorry for her and had connections to pay her bill off. She loved him for it , even though she thought something was fishy about the whole thing.
As she was sitting there at hom in her pajama's with a coke resting next to her on her coffee table she sat in the floor and looked on line at her buddy list. she saw he was still there so she signed on. or came out of her invisible mode. and this box from his name pops up. hey this is David, we got a problem.
Derek is drinking alot! he wont stop until he talks to you.. you need to drop what you are doing and calling him.
Sylvia said "but i have work I have to do for the hospital. can you all hang on until im done." Well what she did know was that she was talking to dereks other side. yes, it scared her, but she wanted to help this tortured soul find freedom from all the pain that it had endured.
She wanted to show this guy a normal relationship. but at the time she felt also like she was trapped. like there was no where for her to go but down because this guy was literally dragging her under the water with him.. under false hope and pretenses.
She thought back as she was responding to the instant message and said to herself, what did i get myself into? this guy is freakin crazy! she bit her lip then thought, if it were me, wouldnt i want someone to help me with this problem. She kept talking till her paper work was done..
even though it took longer because of this david that she barely knew. Finally, she asked where Derek was? he said well hes out drinking some spiced rum. you need to call him before he hurts himself.
Hesitating she picks up the phone, it rings a few times.. then.. Hello Sweetheart, says the voice on the other end that was Derek. Hello dear, she replied back. How are you feeling? Im ok says derek... dont drink anymore ok? i dont need you sick and talking outta your head like last time, sylvia said. Oh, well im not drinking. (says derek)
sylvia : well then why did david say you were drinking spiced rum and that i needed to call you?
Derek: Because it was the quickest way for me to talk to you, Baby.
Sylvia: You didnt have to lie to talk to me, Dear.
Derek: I was afraid you wouldnt speak with me.
Sylvia : Derek, you are a dork! how dumb are you?
Derek: Must be pretty dumb . but Angelica Bitched me out today because of you!
Sylvia: thats good because let me tell you why... you had no right to yell at me last night.
Derek: I love you and im sorry.
Sylvia sits on the floor and lets out a sigh. she thinks " Im fucking tired of this, all this guy does is bitch, and the split personality thing is hard. He talks to people that arent even in the room with him." how to help him * she thought* I know ill take him to couples therapy, maybe some of this will come out in it.
so she talked to him: I think we need couples therapy. I think it would be beneficial to having a better relationship. He freaks out, says " I dont think so, there is nothing wrong with us or this relationship" , *she puts up her away message * she sits there and takes another sigh, not knowing what to do accept call Angelica or Meghan. she pulls out her cell phone and makes a call to Meghan. no answer, she must be at work.
She calls Angelica. I dont know what to do (said sylvia) what do you mean (angelica.). well Derek is talking to himself, and I feel you need to know that I think he may have some problems that need counciling. I tried telling him we would go to couples therapy. but he refused. I wish that we could get him some help before its totally too late.
This is like the horror film the secret window. where he was Johnny depps character in the movie, he didnt even realize how much he talked with himself. Sylvia told Angelica all about it. Angelica says , well are you still going to talk to him? yes i will said sylvia.
Angelica sits in her chair for a moment and says, are you just going to forget about me and not talk to me anymore, you could hear the tears streaming down her cheeks and her voice cracking.. as she spoke.
No ill never leave you behind, your a dear, sweet friend and I love you. ill always talk to you , Angelica, even if it doesnt work out between me and Derek. you and I will always be friends. and ill try to remain dereks as well, cause i will always love him.
but I cannot be with him(marry him) for the simple fact hes taken this twist in his life. I think he had snapped when he was younger. I think it was his folks.. I think they ruined him for any other woman. well anyway, i just wanted to keep you abreast of whats going on with him. ill talk to you soon girlie, take care... sniffles* you too, Sylvia, I want you to call me again soon. ok i will. bye. * the phone disconnects, she turns it off*
she shuts down her computer.. then trapeses up the steps. and went to bed for the night. She thought about what he would be like normal. she thought what a great man he could have been. her heart sank to her stomach. when she realize she still loved him with all her heart.
An hour later she drifted off to sleep without a thought of what was going to happen the next day.
chapter two will come in a day or so.
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